Listen up dear friends, to why it is I changed.
My brain it felt like mash potato, constantly derranged.
I'd hit myself with all my might,
gaining peace to help me sleep at night.
My mind I counld'nt take control,
A husband? A father? yet I had no role.
No longer warm hearted now out of control,
With satan inside me exchanged for my soul.
I love my family, Why do they love me?
I ignored and shouted, "daddy please dont scare me".
I seen their face and felt disgraced,
Of how I made them feel.
My life, what life? get a life!
Pinch me this ain't real.
The noise so loud I could'nt see,
What life I had ahead.
If I don't find whats deep inside,
They're better off I'm dead!!
My past I nurtured like a child,
Failing to let go.
It's poison spread infectious hate,
What next? I die or grow!
I could'nt die I had to grow,
My wife, my kids, I'll never let go.
The warmth, the love, the peace I feel,
Lifes wheel turns quickly, no longer sureal.
I've opened up for all to see,
Why changing was a must for me.
Now is time for you to face that reflection in the mirror,
Fight until you kill your beast, Love life and be a winner.